I Dreamed He Was Hurt

– I missed him so much, but I had to let him go to survive

I had a dream.
In it, he was hurt.
Badly.

He had fallen,
was bleeding,
and frightening things kept happening.
I couldn’t protect him.
I could only watch.

The dream was so vivid
that even after I woke up,
I couldn’t breathe for a while.

Then I realized—
maybe that dream…
came from me.

Somewhere deep inside,
I was letting him go.

I missed him terribly.
I loved him more than words.
But I was drowning in my own life.
Holding on to him
felt like it might break me.

So without knowing,
I gently pushed him away
just to keep breathing.

That dream told me:
I had to let him go
so I could stay alive.

Not because I didn’t love him—
but because I did.

Even now,
I still dream of him.
Because even now,
he is still within me.